If you know me, you probably know that I've been going through some hard stuff pretty much constantly since like April, so this is by no means a spur of the moment decision.
My problems, both personal and interpersonal, have affected my motivation and ability to be the administrator I want to be, and I'd rather step down to free up space for someone who can more properly align with the feeling of the server that the team wants to present.
Thank you all for supporting my writing not only this iteration, but in my previous endeavors. I hope you all get exactly what you want out of the setting, and I wish the rest of the team the best of luck.
And best of luck to you, wherever you're going. I hope things work out for you and that you have the best outcome for life.
I've pretty much ran out of motivation, both to get on the server and to get anything done coding wise. This combined with a general atmosphere that I've started to despise and there's not a lot of reasons left for me to stick around.
Depending on how things go I might pop my head back in somewhere down the line, but for now I'd rather move on and focus on other things.
Of my mind trying to keep this cursed server up. Though really I'd like to thank TankNut for the sheer amount of time he's devoted to TnB since he came on as developer, from adding to our original version of CC to working on TRP, crafting our own version of CC that we used for ZRP and RR's etc. Although I'd prefer Eternity to have a few more essentials than it does right now it's hard to deny the massive amount of time and dev work that TankNut has contributed to our community since he joined and I'll always be thankful that he was pretty much always there to take care of whatever request I had for him. There will always be a space for him here at TnB. So thank you, TankNut, your work here has been very much appreciated and always will be.
Now the hunt begins again to find a not insane and trustworthy dev to take over the next era of TnB gmod script development.
I'm going to resign as well. My activity on the server has all but practically flat-lined. Lately I've just been burned out with role-play as a whole and as such distanced myself from the server to get some fresh air and play other games. I shouldn't hold a position where I feel like it's a chore and not an interest. I've thought about this for a while now but held off because I felt like I was being too hasty, but I think it's all for the best that I step down. I hope you all have a good one.
Decided for my own health that I don't have the right mindset for this sort of thing. I don't agree with some of the choices made as of late, and the additional pressure of this responsibility + college applications have had my mind going.
Thank you all for the opportunity and good luck to both teams. I'll be around.
shinzoedit: love u big man
catedit: catch you on the flipside brother <3
zombedit: stay safe on the path my good man
I'm not going to sugar coat the issues I have with my ability to administrate any further. The community has become far too jaded and the hostility is at levels I don't want to be a part of anymore. I've tried to wrangle and temper some of the conflicts, but it has become more and more apparent to me that I'm running uphill on this one.
I've disagreed with some of you, agreed with others but I've always tried to be fair in how I look at the community and player base. What I once loved to play on and contribute has become nearly weekly threads of constant struggle and it's just a losing battle in the face of such absolutism. I've kept a good friendship with people who have found themselves at odds with the community on all sides of the aisle and with mounting pressure from work and school, it's a fight I can no longer try to balance.
If I could offer any advice to people who read this post, try to remember that we all have our faults and issues. A community should be defined on how it sticks together, not the people who want to fracture it apart.
I really do wish the best for this community. I've devoted years to roleplaying here, administrating and making some great friends along the way. I wish all of you the best of luck.
i resign from hl2. i think everybody knows that i've been burnt out for the last two months and i don't think it's going to get any better for me
shoutout to the members of the team that still have the drive to keep the server moving. really hoping it turns out for the best for you guys and you get everything back on track. wish i had the drive to keep things rolling and help everybody out but after thinking on it for the last couple of nights i just can't see myself coming back around. it's been a long time coming and tbh probably should have resigned sooner but the whole s2 release got the better of me. unfortunately, the little burst of energy i got from it wore out pretty quickly.
best of luck to the hl2 admin team. aside from a few decisions i've disagreed with, the admins still hanging on and playing daily are very dedicated and deserve everybody's praise for how they've been doing
also loa for a bit from trp
z: I hope things are working out for you mate, drop us a note if you need anything